Posts tagged clatterandclank
Okay but consider this: mermaids in space
Space mermaids? As in: alien mermaids that live in the vacuum of space and swim between the stars? A setting that uses the analogy of deep space as the open ocean but keeps all the sea monsters? DO WANT!!
it is a wonderful day
a shiba just walked by my window
i presented my master’s research to a small group of friendly faces, looking cute as hell, and Officially Met A Program Requirement
i have managed to not get rained or snowed on, though both have happened, through my very sneaky timing in walking between places
and i get to go see bee and sam & co in denver for ELEVAN DAYZ
all my life misery has just fucked right off
ELI SHOWED ME A COOL THING where it generates a skeleton in various angles for you !!!!!!
oh shiiiit it’s the ultimate warmup tool yesss thank you
FEEL IT’S MIGHT
This site is SO FRICKIN COOL!!! OMG I am ADDICTED!!!
not to be that asshole
im drunk and it’s late and
i’m super excited to see BOTH of my partners this week after weeks and weeks away
also, sidenote, i just bit myself really a little too hard because i’m crazy excited
and fairly drunk and otherwise smokily intoxicaet
i also lost my keys (they’re probably in my friend’s house or other friend’s car, nbd, s’cool)
this is why i don’t drink much anymore, crazy things like this always happen, i’ve spent more time than i want to explaining why i don’t want to date white men (it’s the privilege, bro)
bee. i love you. and i am going to swallow you fucking whole. and it is going to be a glorious ouroboros of lavahotlove. fyi. <3 THIS MOTHERFUCKING WEEK. MERE DAYS UNTIL I GET TO TOUCH YR MORE-PERFECT-THAN-CARLOS FAAAAAAAAACE.
i’ma get gross but i gotta be real: i’m insanely excited to get a 9-5 for a coupla years and be just stoked to leave work at work and come home to my fuckin family. as someone who never conretely imagined herself comcretely partnered, it’s been a big, awesome, expansove shift. i can’t imagone my future withour it being orgnaized around bee and our family. i always predicted i would be child free by choice, and, so much for that, i met bee when they were two months pregnant and their daughter zadie is two and a half now and said my name for the first time on skype a few weeks ago and it fucking mattered in ways that i haven’t understood before. my heart knows this is the most right thing i could ever do. build a new lift, in a new way, with new people, in a new place.
i came into grad school, then conceptualized my alt-ac career, in very precise and individualistic ways that were simply not compatible with falling in love-of-my-life love, especially as a package deal (all told, my partner’s in-home family includes child, husband [‘dada’], my partner [‘baba,’ a parental term for my partner that this BRILLIANT CHILD is alreadu generalizing to transmasculine people in general, omg, three-gender baby with no personal gender referent, livinb hte fucking dreram]), and third co-partner [‘mama’])
it’s incredibly ideal and very aligned with my values
i don’t feel like i’m making any sacrifices; once i relinquished my rigid expectations of moving back to the bay area (not feasible), everything has felt really easy and right, and i’m narrowing down the field of jobs i’ll be applying for, and i feel really secure about my preparation
i never thought that i would end up in a situation like this, but i am overwhelmingly grateful that i have.
okay. this needs edits so we’ll see if i publish.
ETA: this got queued on accident, so i wrote it like a month ago (thanks drunk hunter) but of course i mean every word~